Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Mental Vomiting

It seems that there's lots of shit clogging my soul, but due to the state of disconnection I’m being in for so many years now, it seems that I don't even have an idea what the fuck is my problem really O.o

see.... I don't even have anything to write, but I've been having lots of downs recently, and I seriously have no idea what for :/ -too many emoticons woman-

I’m not ok

I’m not sure why

I want to quit

Not sure if it's me or them

I like being an FF&E designer

Not much of FF&E designing really

I hate the current task, how many times should I say that I don't like technical shit and constructions -matda5lnish fe tafaseel ya med7at style-

I don’t have much to do

She’s not so cool any more

Btetnataty 3la meen ya wlya.. enty sada2ty nafsik walla eh -wa7da raf3a 7ageb we mnzla eltany-

Enty btzleeny belmoratab yaro7 ommik.. 5odyh ya5ty ana 3andy ahl ysrefo 3laya wallahy mesh mn foqara2 elmohagereen ana 

3abouko kloko

I’m lonely.. and yes I want to fall in love -mab7ramsh allah y7ra2ny-

Doubting my mental an emotional stability... for real :|

I hope I’m not being serious about liking him.. I can't really can't

But do you think it could be.. why would he like me back... bla nila

I donno what I want

Shakly keda mesh hashouf floos elgayza :'(

Knt hasafer behom allah y7ra2ko... ya3ny la hyb2a hegra wala 7ata ra7lat... elmn7ous man7ous 7aqqan

Ana maly ana 3ayza arou7 3and ommy :'''''''(... aw ommy teegy ashal

Ibn elklab y7awel talbeesy el5awazeeq elm3'arya.. w7yat ommy a2lblk eltchrabeeza kolha 3la nafou5 ommak

Lots of shit.. lots and lots of shit

To quit or not to quit

I have no idea how I feel... 5ales males... we kman bales

Escaping reality... my curse

I’m weak

I’m a spoiled ungrateful bitch

I’m good.. I’m bad.. I donno

Mar2a3et el3omal... a7eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh

Er7amo mayteen ahly

Tab eh

Tab howa fe moshkila 7aqeeqya walla ana bastahbel ya fawzya

Abo ommik ya fawzya elsara7a

3yza asafer

3ayza asafer awy gedan

Hejra aw fos7a msh far2a

Eh elly ana bktb ommo dah 

Tantabany a7yanan 7alat boka2 we iktche2ab.. bas fel3'alb na eshta

Hal hya a7zan we mashakl makbouta

Lemaza elwasla m2tcho3a mabeny we ben zaty

Walahy shakly etganent rsmy

I need a hug

I need passion

I need to relax

I’m so tense that I feel like I’m about to snap

Qamous abo 3eela2.. 3arby englizy englizy 3araby

Elhabal loh naso brdon

Tab eh tany 

Law sebt elsho3'l.. hal ana keda batbatar fe zel elzroof elrahina elaty tamorro beha elbilad O.o

Bas ana 2afsha

We mesh 3arfa iz akont sa3eeda am 7aziena

We msh 3arfa a3rf ay 7aga

Mna mesh ba2olly 7aga 5alis

Tab momkn a3od ma3 nafsy 3la inferad

M3ndish wa2t

I have all the time in the world

I want to live

I don't want to be a walking dead

CONNECT

7ad ylames elselk ymkn anawar

Don't cyber stalk him

Don't take this crush seriously

Why not :/

No way in hell

Drama queen bnt kalb

I like acting fash5

I’m a good actress

I’m the queen 

Promoted from the chorus -mouto b3'ayzekonna :P-

Ana athabl aged3an

Howana batlt arsm leh

We sebt elfashion leh

We mesh ba2ra zay elawel leh

We mesh bakteb zay zaman leh

We mesh bal3b WOW leh

We mesh bady fesho3'ly leh

We msh radya leh

We mesh sakta leh

We mesh mrta7a leh

We mesh basaly leh 

We mesh far2a m3aya aslan leh

We motanaqda leh

We mesh han5alas elbta3 da ba2a walla eh

We akl wala astana at3'ada walla at3'ada delw2ty walla eh

Y5rbeet elqafya

Omelette.. omelette fash5 b2a

Mesh maktobly 7ad y7tawy ahly ya3ny fel3eesha de walla eh elnizam 

Nefsy asara5 bas mesh 3ayza

Yabky wa yd7ak

Shaklak bipolar ya nossa

Bataly teda3besy fe sitat elpsychology 

Mhashesa

Safenga

Ataqams adwar wa7alat wa sha5syat... lakn el7aqiqa iny I don't exist

Ana ma3rfsh ana meen

Da bgad 3la fekra

Ana m3ndish lon mofadal... wala akla mofadala... wala ay 7aga mofadala

Kolo mashy mafish mashakel

I’m fine

I’m alive

But I’m not living

Mafesh 7aga hat7el 7aga

Kolha mn montalaq "the grass is greener"

Mesh 3arfa

Mesh 3yza a3raf

Waybqa el7al 3la mahowa 3alih w3la elmotadarer ellgo2 lelqada2

Bas amana motadarer

Aw bt3ola2

Mesh adra a7aded

El3eb feya walla howa fe3lan fe 7aga 

Yaragel kabbar mo5ak


Elbta3 da tewel mny awy

2 comments:

  1. Missed the blog-sphere on general and yours specifically, But don't worry you do exist, lets just say you are an easy going kind of person, and call it a night

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  2. happy go lucky.. bas afesh afesh wallah.. ylla kolo bytla3 fel3'aseel ya o5tchy

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